god oh jesus it’s so hard to “break up” with a friend, especially when they act all nice and friendly for once [I think it’s only in front of other people]
things always go okay up until a certain point. then everything just dies really fast and you feel like your skin is on fire and there aren’t any words trying to escape from your mouth. then people are asking you to actually express truth and no truth actually exists, you were brought up like this, it’s part of your cells, there’s no way around it. then you’re finally asleep and people are knocking on your door, trying to wake you up, and the rain is trying to break in and it’s so loud under all the silence. go away please, I’m so tired. I’ve been awake for so long.
I ignore everyone on the street but I ALWAYS smile at dogs